Anatomy of a knock out punch

interesting stuff.

of Acrobat pro 8 and office 2007

as many may know, there was inability for acrobat pro 8 to support office 2007. So8 Jun, smarty pants at Adobe released 8.1 which has full support for vista and office 2007.

go lookie:
Article explaining wat was done
Place to download the update if ur autoupdater has not download it yet.

Passion, Inspiration

After watching The American President, starring, Michael Douglas, Michael J Fox, Anette Benning. I had a sudden realisation.

Passion, in life, in what you do, in what you think, is omnipresent in life. Inspiration which lifts us up from the depths, to spur us for a moment is temporary, and short lived. We see an inspirational movie, about love, about life, about our aims in life and we get inspired. To do something better for ourselves, to do something better for others. But this inspiration dies after a while, as though we lost steam along the way. I dunno about you, but i frequently see myself lose my way, not able to stay on path to my dreams and goals. I frequently blame distractions, and procrastinations. But i realise this moment that. I lack passion.

We always try to encourage ourselves, with a quote from the Bible, images or gifts that remind us of the aspirations that we have, or others have for us. And we think what it would be to let down these people that have so much hope in us. But, these are not powerful enough, and usually are jsut momentary inspirations for me.

Sudden discovery of passion today has led me to think, how can i keep this alive? Maybe i write it down and read it when i do not feel the fire? But then i realise that, that would just be an inspiration, and that true passion never dies. It is believing in something you want to do. It is something you will want to achieve before you die, the cells, every single in the billions of them has the essence of your passion. And you work to it. You do not make empty promises to yourself anymore. And you live, and be. A single line of thought, not deviated, invariable. For you want it enough to sacrifice it all.

Michael Bublé - Call me irresponsible

A fantastic album that i got from dear Poon. Thanx loads for this smooth voiced album. smooth enough to lubricate any bad day.

i need to study for OSCEs. and catch up. Always playing catch up so tiring. Exams were postponed from before holidays to after: 18 July. So my hols from 9 June till 15 June i will plough through the thick fermented pile of knowledge that i have yet to consume. sad for a holiday. At least my mum is coming on 29 June that will bring some life to my monotonous life.

Perception seems to be changed by choice. You choose what and how u want to perceive. Even if an event you witness changes your perception, it is because you allowed it to. e.g. you see a video or a street side performace advocating irresposible sex. You wouldnt be affected by it to want to have irresponsible sex (of course there are some that will).

Maybe it's time to buy a heater. irritating how a CLOSED window still leaks cold air into my room and therefore cooling my right hand more than my left. As my right hand holds the mouse and my left is protected by the screen of my laptop. Sigh.

My condolences to Han Boon whose brother passed away. Though i do not know him at all.

People who think that they are unpopular: here is some fruit for thought. Social norms are what define how we should act in front of others. popularity is seen as people who conform to these norms and also impress by being able to twist the norms to make it more interesting without creating discomfort to others. They are therefore inspirational and also impressive.

Unpopular are prople who bend the norms but in a way that causes discomfort to others therefore causing others to want to stay away from you. No one wants to stay close to someone who makes them uncomfortable, i know that first hand ;p. So the cure: observe the world more carefully and the initial phase will be to emulate a popular person. Not emulate the actions but emulate the way they think: how to bend norms to impress. If not just stick to the norm and live peacefully.

Today i remember someone telling me i do not know what i am missing if i do not find love. :) yes good old blonde John said that.

Appreciated

Nice for Jocelyn to appreciate what i sent back for her. Haha nice to catch up too. appreciation a really nice feeling thingy to receive. but yet very low cost to give.

Sense of helplessness

helpless are people who dun want to help themselves. Since i am feeling a bit helpless, i would think i am subconsciously not wanting to help myself. Which is not a smart thing. Wish my subconscious is smarter than that. I have put my subconscious aside. HOpe i feel less hopeless after i navigate myself away from the ill effects of the procrastinating subconscious. We all want to rest and relax inside of us, just that we override that so that we can do better and work harder.

Photos from Rural Bairnsdale

The photos for Bairnsdale, my rural attachment for 2 weeks are up. Go look at my Flickr or here. Had a lovely time, the best accomodation: waterfront balcony, BBQ, tennis courts, swimming pool. A place of salvation after a long tiring day.

Activities were good, got to be in an amubulance and administer morphine and GTN to a cardiac patient. Got to do plastering, do IV cannulation on Jeff.
Got to talk to a few interns, and 4th year students. Got to see breath-taking views of the country. See how some people actually stay where there is not a single living soul other than you in a few kilometers radius.

Now back with so many thngs to do. Hope i sleep less.

a myriad of Assignments

Assignments many, i see
i gotta have to do what i have put aside to be.

fatigue creeps in
even with the loss of time through lumbering slumber.
sleep a time where we are free,
though not when it is full of dreams of work, if not nightmares.

the incessant chattering of voices telling me to start what i have to,
but i turn a deaf ear, when i dun hear them with ears.
procrastination, suspension, lingering, loitering, that's what i have been doing.

and it all ends today. for the mountains i have built at the back of my mind from a long to-do list,
are about to come crashing from my high expectations that only make them higher.

looking into the future and hoping that i can become what i see.
not a dream only is it?

At rural: Bairnsdale

Currently blogging at the Gippsland skool of rural health, apparently had previous 5 attempts at bloggin around here and at Omeo but to no avail. Well at last i get my chance. Beautiful place, beautiful accomodation. Good luck to Jeff hugging Jessica Alba at the premiere of Fantastic Four: Rise of the Silver Surfer.

Gtg for PCL now. Will be back at urban on 11 May.

Be gone SPC!

well spent the whole weekend doing Students Project Cases SPC. Now i am supposedly well versed in political and health promotion issues of breast cancer.

Well i should go about actually absorbing Becky's part of patho physio and treatment. probably more useful than my part. well will be going to rural placement at Bairnsdale. and well i am considering going to remote hospital as there are only 2 places. Also maybe i will join the ambulance service for a while.

Well, now off to lecture. Exam was not too good. I'll pass but i dunno how much i'll get. Wait and see.

and Amy says hi to the world of blogging!

Hope i do not come online or blog post till after exams

I got too many distraciton online. Well now to curb them by not gg online at all. unless of course to use: http://cancerweb.ncl.ac.uk/omd/

for people who actually need more than one desktop go: http://chsalmon.club.fr/index.php?en

How to make your Windows XP look like Vista/Longhorn. Well it doesnt have the Desktop windows manager which is still the coolest part. And also no desktop search which is in Vista. Well there is always Google, Microsoft and Yahoo Desktop indexing services. Go look:

http://www.jcxp.net/forums/index.php?s=df0820f167c81d817dabc44fd5cbebd8&showtopic=13415

well as you can see i spend too much time doing stuff that has nothing to do with studying.

Tata till Wed. Hope i dun get palpitations and die of a Myocardial infarction during the exam or maybe while studying.

Blardy Aussie Dollar climbed till 1.26 sianz... go look at the live updates at the bottom of my page

Free hugs

And have a look at my photos of them at city where i was with Karin. We joined in and got our fair share of hugs too. Too bad we were pressed for time, if not we would have stayed the whole night there.