the best and worst weekend in a long time

we sometimes forget weekends are 2 days. and where there is life there is balance, and therefore both good and bad. though u can argue that bad and good are subjective and the nature of the events or objects themselves are neither good or bad.

so here is my subjective view of my weekend lol.

havent posted on sunday as i have been disabled. physically and technologically. have been down with a cold, and becky thinks its the flu. since Saturday night. and had fever and chills Monday night. felling better now though i still sound terribly nasal and i wonder if i can make it for MCR on thurs. should be fine =) slept a total of 16 hours since last night. no wonder i feel good.

my laptop's hard disk died on sunday. i backed up most of my stuff dun worry. but i had to finish my assignment by monday so i had to borrow's Andrew's desktop to do it =) THANK ANDREW! and so monday went to Becky's and got to MSY to get cheap hdd and ram. was about $90 for a 250 GB hdd and $52 for a 2GB RAM. now i feel so powerful lol. and because of my disablements, i havent been up to scratch in terms of work and have been doing my tutorial tasks last minute, feeling bad about that.

and the good part: had lunch at the point with Becky, food was awesome in terms of entre and deserts. if u want details go see Becky's blog. then spent the rest of the day together =)

MCR's on thurs! so i better brush up my skills before then.

Gym

i need to gym more. gymed today. and think i pushed myself a bit hard. felt a bit fatigued and nauseous. man i am glad i didnt go for the 8 km run. maybe i just havent been running enough. and i neeed that echo for my heart. before i am willing to run more.

i neeeeeed to study!!!! i will study =) thanks to someone

=)

Finally the wait is over.
tired that's what i am from being happy =)

Relax

so now i'm in musculoskeletal rotation. much more slack than the head and neck rotation. but i am down with a bad sore throat, the Strep throat again. if not i prob would still be in the wards interviewing patients now.

on plastics at the moment. should be fun when i get into theatre. then there will be trauma, haha yummy ;p

well i sorta figured what i have to do to study. repetition. and prob give up working in the holidays to catch up. i'll see how it goes.

Glad there is someone out there pushing me hard to study =) and i almost forget the people i owe to where i am. my patients are awaiting for me to study lol.

Studying mechanisms

i need to take some time off my busy schedule to think about how i study. it's getting a bit too much for me to take. i am sooo behind and i am not studying efficiently if at all.

lack of concentration, fixing studying around my life rather than my life around studying.
the lack of repetition to fix stuff in my head: therefore leading to my lack of memory power.
it will be a waste of my pattern recognition skills and my comprehension power if i carry on decaying like this. i'll just end up like a piece of carrot, rotting, shrivelling up gradually. till the day i kill too many people and i will get chopped off.

at least now i can study for someone =)

and good luck to dear Poon Shi Hui who is gg to Edinburgh for electives. dun save too many lives there, try to have some fun while u are there.

Gadgets!

just when i thought external keyboards couldnt get any better:




and just when i thought there maybe hope for the increased incidence of obesity and diabetes in the world:



my gawd. wat has the world come to.

and congrats to the girl who has a new car =)

Nobel prize

is it too far a goal to get a nobel prize? i think not. we are all smart enough to do something good with our minds, if only we work hard at it, and stay humble, and not get the evilness of the people out there get to you, we should be able to reach there. where ever there maybe.

i have told many people this: when we are young it's easy to know what is the best you can do. to get 100 marks for an exam, to pass an interview, you know what is the highest possible achievement you can have. But when it comes to post graduate, or especially as a doctor in the future. what is the best you can offer in life? to save as many people as you can one at a time? to be a surgeon general? to go to 3rd world countries to help the unfortunate there? or research a new cure or new pathogenesis of a disease? or to earn as much money as you can? or to juggle either of these and have a nice normal family?

the highest mark is blurred, and i wonder what i will do. all i noe is i want a family life at this moment.

My first suturing victim

My first suturing victim
Originally uploaded by kerfern

another to add on to the list of Signs and Symptoms that you are a medical student:

you suture your dinner. lol this is my kitchen counter and my chopping board. 'lacerated' my chicken with my GLOBAL knife lol. poor chick: forgot to put Local anaesthesia before suturing.

i think i should use suturing more usefully: suture a chicken up after i stuff it with stuffings.

had a suturing tutor by a 5th year student who literally has sutured thousands of patients! man i'm jealous.

My world

My world spins around an axis,
and axis called Yew

without Yew, my world stops,
without Yew, my emotions crumble,
without Yew, i cant stand up straight as i used to.

Only Yew can hold my weight, the weight of my contents, my feelings, my thoughts.
With every dawning day, the bond between the axis and the world gets closer.

but when the bond is suddenly lost, the world spins out of control, the world falls;
it falls into a deep endless space.
The world realises he doesnt know which direction to fall to, for the only guidance he had was the axis.
up, down, left, or right?

down he went. and down and down till the feeling was so low. it was terrible.
it was terrible.
the world needs the axis.
My world needs Yew

i need to work harder

My mouse pad and easter egg from Ling and Daryl!
Originally uploaded by kerfern

been sleeping a lot lately. like average 9 to 10 hours. so you can think how much studying i have done if my days are usually 8 to 5ish.

got a great boost of momentum thanks to you and am studying real hard at this moment. i realise i have loads of catching up to do when looking at how consistent people are. and neuro got sooooo much to read lol.

and i havent even finish evaluating the Prof's examination dvd. love him to bits, so brilliant that he was barred from being an examiner somewhere as his standard of neurological examination was so high he failed too many ;p

i just went on my first ever Studio shoot organised by the monash photography club. have some pics, have a look. loved it. we shot so much that we blew a light. lol. funny for me but not for the club. there was this hot babe that was in a suggestive post and the floor of like 6-7 photographers cap shooting an triggering the studio flash continuously till it blew. haha. tt's how desperate guys are. or rather how sad ;p

and this is picture is the mouse pad and the easter egg that Ling and Daryl bought for me =) i heart u guys =)

Fever!

mm been feeling wierd with a sore throat. seems typical of a strep throat i usually get if i get a sore throat which is really rare. close to but not yet feverish. sigh.

easter break for this week went pass quick. and i have done well let's just put it as a bit more than nothing. had a great time watchin Step up 2. according to my sources, the dancing is not as good as Step up 1, which i didnt watch.

photos are all up. so go have a look.

and i am ebaying a bit too much nowadays. eyeing a new wide angle lens.
SP AF17-50mm F/2.8 XR Di II LD Aspherical [IF]

with this i can rule the world ahahaha. that is if i pass med skool.

those blardy noobs at ebay better stop bidding for my lens. it's getting a bit too costly =(

time for me to go do my assignment. sigh

I carry your heart with me

has been a slow easter. not out and about, not studying, just playing Worms Armageddon.

but well at lat got my photoshop C3 to work. and finished editing my photos. so go have a look. Went Wilson's Prom to see the Squeaky beach with Jas, Terrence, Vivek. It was quite cool because of the high quartz content. Every step u take squeaks =)

Time now to get down to work. Bought a new flash diffuser. but a cheaper version lol. made in China ;p and well hoping i can get a new wide angle F/2.8 lens. it's on ebay for AUD$50 at the moment. hope those 5 people stop bidding hahaha, 3 more days to go ;p

And suddenly Winter is slipping through the door. Freezing these days. A poem that's so lovely. recommended by a friend =)

I carry your heart with me

i carry your heart with me(i carry it inmy heart)
i am never without it(anywhere i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling)

i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

ee cummings

Sweet and simple =)