Why tomorrow will be a better day.

First it has been a terrible day, learnt a whole lot about studio lighting for photography, nothing about medicine. and i mean nothing. Furthermore, i am falling sick, having the sniffles and we usually know where this proceeds: sniffles > sinusitis > Cough > URTI > bronchitis > antibiotics > resolution.

So deriving from first principle that today = terrible day, tomorrow cannot be as bad or worse, so it will be a better day than today.

Also on a side note, we are going to have a better future with the following inventions:

terabyte thumbdrive in 3 years: that 1024 gigabytes for those who do not know, it is more energy efficient, has more space

Focus fusion: not cold fusion, not conventional nuclear fusion, not nuclear fission. new energy in the making. If this works, we probably may end up with an ice age at last.

For those who do not know, the cyclical ice age has been delayed for very very long due to our industrious production of gases from our farts in our industries.

Daylight savings has started

Yes 3 hours ahead of Singapore again. 1 hour lost. not that i studied in that hour lol.

in library now.

Miss you.

yes i do miss u.

not sad, but just a yearning. you probably dunno who you are, the world can try to guess but no one knows =)

a secret locked away from the rest of the world.

i remember the joy u bring, the fact i just want to smile when i want to see you, remember the way we looked at each other.

i miss you.

you think it is you, but then you think not, you'll never know if it is you.

d80 incoming from the US

so i bought a nikon d80 from ebay from the US. it's coming with 2 lenses

tamron 28-80mm F3.5-5.6
tamron 70-300mm Di LD macro lens.

total of USD$889.95 + USD$60= about SGD$1400

quite a steal. but i think there goes my pay i earned this year and that remained from last year.

hope to get a SB800. but mm think have to plant money tree first.

Tmr doing a shoot for the year 2s in South 1 LT. hope it turns out well, havent had the chance to recce the LT, but hope i get a chance tmr at 8 am.

This hobby is getting a bit serious lol.

librarying

so i am librarying, slow start to studying, but at least i started i suppose.

untitled but not unloved

i thought i was procrastinating, then i saw this site. and it is perfect.

if you ever forget what love is, have a look, have a listen. Leigh's photography

the pictures she took, are what photography should be, communicating emotions, communicating love. Communicating...

And with this i remember my path down the long road is not all terrible and unloving.

photography, is but a stream of moments u wish to see that slip pass u in an instant.

photography how far can you go?

have a look at sports photography

then there is the camera that you can shoot more than 100 Megapixels
the ALPA 12 XY

does it even look like a camera to u? lol

together with the lens and the digital backing, think you have to fork out about USD $10000.

haha, i hope i dun end up there, paying so much just for a camera that looks wierd ;p

okay time to sleep for me. and time for the flame to burn, and start vigorous studying.

wikipedia on the decline? are you tone deaf or rythm deaf?

have a look. a dip in the rate of number of articles created and also rate of edits

test if you are tone deaf? i got 83.3%

or test if you are rhythm deaf? i got 80%

pitch perception i got about 7.8Hz .

tell me if u do the tests. i dunno if the scores are real enough.

Cold

It's cold. When there was darkness, no sun to give heat.
When all that is left is but me and cold meat.
I showered in the cold, i shivered as did my breath.
Never so cold outside it burnt me inside.
After a while, the shivers died down, and i realised i was numbed.
So we can be so cold we forget to shiver, so cold we grow numb of it all.
As though the body gave up on itself.

A walk tonight through the lack of light.
So cold, so windy.
To get a knife, yes the blade so cold, back to where it should be.
It cleared my mind, realised it's time to let it go, to let everything flow.
For who are we but a piece of sand, flowing through the universe with his breath.

If i was cold only so you could be warm, i would do it till my breath freezes.

Desolated

So i feel desolated in terms of loneliness, i wonder how friends are? whether sometimes i have too high expectations of them, or they are just bound by restrictions that do not allow them to interact with me. Not many people will understand. But i always think everyone is lonely. Unless you are in reciprocated love, for nonreciprocating love is desolating, very desolating. Makes the bed lonely especially without Liv.

Study. i better pick up some momentum. Study has been zilch. I am worried. But i am not acting on it. i will. i promise i will. Now? i hope it starts now.

Photography. I won a competition organised by the Monash Photography Club. Won a 2GB SD card, a Gloria Jeans gift pack and 2 weeks free coffee at Caulfield campus. But i dun go to Caulfield campus, nor do i drink tt much coffee. lol But i am thankful for those who voted for my photo which was put up at the cafe in Caulfield. I won the point and shoot category, while Robby won the dSLR category.

Kary's Family.
Originally uploaded by kerfern

Had a great time at Kary's Surprise birthday party. She had her whole family there! Took many great shots, but i discover limitations of my camera are still not overcome. Dark high ISO pics still look terrible with noise removal. And i want a wide angle adapter and also a F2 lens. haha that will mean i buy a wide angle adapter or buy a dSLR. haha like i got money to. had a few shots for XY's surprise morning celebration too. time for me to let go and abandon photography for a while till after exams, if not i am not gg to pass. seriously.

Love to suffer or suffer from too much happiness

now my current favourite quote by Woody Allen in Love and Death (1975):

To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering, one must not love. But, then one suffers from not loving. Therefore, to love is to suffer, not to love is to suffer, to suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love, to be happy, then, is to suffer, but suffering makes one unhappy, therefore, to be unhappy one must love, or love to suffer, or suffer from too much happiness — I hope you're getting this down

reminds me of 白马非马, where the edge of logic is on the verge of illogic lol. Go check out the link. yes yes, not many peopl know wikipedia has chinese to it too.

2, 4, 8, 16, 32, 64, 128 at last i am at a binary number post again lol

how geeky is that post title man.

The one week break, slacking too much,  took too many photos, till i know how to use many functions in photoshop.

explored the limitation of my grainy shots @ high ISOs at Lesley's and Nirvana's birthday party, and found that i dun really have a limit now i have a good noise removal software lol. but i only shot till ISO 800. Th party was great. nice simple, with majong included. and nice family warmth, Lesley's parents, sister, and grandmother came to stay. Lovely =)

went Tulip Fest on Saturday. Took many good photos as well as from the Dandenong Ranges Park for birds. Actually managed to get shots of Cockatoos flying away, with the help of Jackie the Monash Photography club's treasurer. The trip with the photography club was immense, 2 full buses and 1 car. tt's 114 + 1 car of people (dunno how many were in it).

Studies wise. not good at all. finished the bare minimum: grp work reflective. tt's about it. and i am serious. so now time to rush. Thanks to the stress from Bambie, Jas lol.

And if i want to be a surgeon, it is time i actually touched my Moore's again.