Question

I have a question for you.
Why am i such a fool?
To jester in your court,
Just to hope you would some how halt, and take a look at me.
And you sit in your balcony so high, no one can reach.
While i try to reach and fall as i earnestly beseech.
When i wish upon a star, my dreams come true?
And when it doesnt i blame who?
Question me and question you,
but can i ever have an answer from you.

i do not make sense when i am sick. the brain is partially soggy like a candle melted off its wick. And holes will gather in the net, for my brain is holey lest i forget.

Something's Gotta Give

Lovely film. released in 2003, pretty nice film, watched most of it on tv tonight. Romance in old age i would think. but it teaches how to love let in. I know someone who needs to learn that ;p

i have been sick for the last few days since exams were over on Wed. slept an average of 12+ hours a day. Amazing i am still sleepy now. drugged from the histamine in my clogged nose, that my mind is wondering and tired. A wondering mind gets focus when it thinks of wierd stuff, ranging from lamenting at the lack of love to how busy can someone get and not reply messages on msn. you start to think of ideas why they do not answer messages, and i spend half my time sleeping thinking i think of wierd stuff. I had this dream that i was jumping on cows, i forgot what it was for.

Missed a run, i had a 10 km run scheduled this morning but missed it thanks to my illness. great weather, great company, but i wasnt there. and so i lost $16. At least Daryl Chung helped me spend my $16 better lol and ran for me =)

After hearing a brief of the exam debrief from the housemate, once again, exam results are not going to be as good as i hoped for.

Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious, say a lil prayer for me

i promise i will not lament about not studying in this post. MY life well has been monotonous somewhat. what broke the monotony this week was going to National Day Celebration organised by SAM. It was great. Jeff said he expected it to be better, well it's my first time there. Anbd thanks to Ling, i was the photographer for that too. have a look at the photos. Once again i learnt something new in photography: people are fascinated by a slave flash and that i should get a diffuser, though i just made one out of baking paper... Where cooking meets photography lol.

Then Friday night, because i ran out of food, i went out with Melissa and a few year 3s Weng Fai, Chong Beng and Pradeep for dinner. Pradeep has a new Jazz too, but it's auto. And he drives a bit too fast and reckless for my liking lol. but well at least there was adrenaline. Went to Box Hill to eat. Never been there before. The Char Siew i ate was the best i have eaten in Australia.

Okay now i am off to execute my plan to counter my ever present sloth and get some studying done. Say a little prayer for me. ;p

Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious: super- "above," cali- "beauty," fragilistic- "delicate," expiali- "to atone," and docious- "educable," the sum meaning roughly "Atoning for extreme and delicate beauty while still being highly educable." i.e. someone incredibly beautiful but also extremely intelligent. i have in mind 1 person who is tt lol.

Masquerade! Hide your face, so the world will never find you!

So what do u do, what do you feel, when u see a bouquet of champagne tulips, so beautiful, u want to buy it for a girl, but you realise you have no one to give to.

what do you do when you suddenly realise the night was cold and lonely, and you want to share your warmth with someone and wonder who, when there is no one there for you to.


And the pillows smell of emptiness while you hope to have a familiar fragrance lingering, but u never smelt that fragrance yet. you wonder when will u first see her, when will u first smell her, sense her.

why do you hide your feelings in the masquerade? Is it so hard to let the past be and to let love in?
Hide your heart, so love will never find you.
And the smile you carry everyday, is sad, as i am too.

Any where you go let me go too.
Love me - that's all i ask of you.

p.s. no i am not in love, just that i have an inundation of heartache when hearing my favourite track from Phantom of The Opera: That's All I Ask Of You

烧肉 perfection

made the best 烧肉 shao1 rou4 ever, too bad i was too hungry, didnt leave some for my housemates or the usual people who steal food from me on weekdays. so well i suppose self praise is no praise. lol

spent the whole Saturday from 8 am till 6 pm to realise that i cant deal with Microsoft Access. I need a proper tutor for that. to analyse my survey results for Health Promotion project. but then i found out how to use excel as a database. so things should be fine, thanx to dad teaching me basic excel like close to 10 years ago lol. well there are many new commands exp for stats that i never ever touched b4. well i'll learn it along the way i suppose. and so will my team: Jas, XY, Becky, Kel ;p

started studying hard for a while, but lost a bit of momentum since friday. so gotta catch up today! 10 days to exams again. lol many ask why so fast another exam, well, there was a screw up in the scheduling for the previous one.

photos are up as u can see ;p and people please make comments about the photos. if u have any that is.

So a rollercoaster I say.

Ups and downs. I counsel and lend a listening ear to many, and I never saw this day come that I needed someone to listen, though I didn't really have that much to say. I had a surge of depression, probably repressed feelings of rejection, probably about not being able to see my friends here and in sg, about just how frustrating it is for close friends I have that are struggling with long distance relationships, and many other factors I choose to not disclose or just cant remember.

But a light shone on me, friends I have, friends I cherish, that are there sticking their ear to my heart, listening for any missed beats or absence of life. So concerned about me, not moving even when I shove u away. An amazing friend indeed. And another, always willing to sacrifice time for me, after I thought u the importance of relationships in life and not just the headless pursuit for perfection in academia.

Well I am healed, with a smile almost constantly on my face. Not that I have no problems, but I have friends that care.

Other parts of my life:

Happy birthday to John Lee Wei Chern. Good buddy, fellow marist. Fellow meddie, but sadly miles away in the tropics. Hope u got the card. If not I will screw the mailman.

Got my P's for my driving in Australia, so means that I can drive legally, without supervision, but it does not really matter since I dun have a car and I dun intend to get one soon. At least not till next year or year 4. At last paying AUD$1000 has paid off lol.

Watched Phantom of the opera. Love the conductress. She was absolutely hawt and highly professional! If I had a rose I would give it to her lol. Watched it with Amy and her cousin and cousin's bf too bad we couldn't get tickets for more people. Met Ling and the year 1s and hitched a ride back with Ling. She stays nearer to me anyways.

I'll upload photos for MCF on my Flickr soon. No more bandwidth at home, overshot the quota again. Think it is only a bit faster than a 56kbps now. tata